And here I am, standing at the beginning of the road that is the rest of my life, and I feel that there is two ways to go: the first one is one which I continue working for myself and my family, to make money so I can pay my bills and do my things, and the other is the path which I work solely for Him and His glory. I want to choose the second path, and I will, but I am very scared right now because doing this it may be a bumpy ride at first. Choosing the second path and working for Him, doing what I feel He has put on my heart, would include me eventually quitting my job to do His work. I know He will take care of me as only He can, but it's a bit scary because without my job I don't know how I would pay bills, but at the same time I feel that if He has put this on my heart then there must be bigger plans that He has for me. I know He will take care of me and what I need, but I'm just a little scared getting started because of personal risks involved.
I know I'm being totally selfish here and I should never doubt His plans and will and I will go forth in His name and bring Him glory, but it's hard right now to understand. But then again, we will never fully understand His will until He is ready for us to, right? I'm just going to go forth down this path and trust His guidance, as I should.
Please pray for me to have courage and leave my selfish ways behind. Thank you.